Why is it that I only post on this thing when I’m in uber-deep-sad-contemplative mode? My life is so good. It amazes me how in spite of the amount of stuff I have to do, I don’t run out of time anymore. I have to worry about things getting done, but nothing like it used to be. Instead of wishing I had more time to spend with the people around me, I wish some days that there were more people around me to spend time with. I love my life. I love my husband and the amount of time that we are given to spend together. I know that this will not last forever and that time is a valuable thing. It makes me sad that I can go through an entire day’s worth of classes and not have an acutal conversation with another human being. I miss my family and friends, I feel like a completely different person than I was 6 months ago. I feel old. I go to an office and sit at a desk every day. Everytime I walk into a room I get mobbed by little kids screaming, “Miss Amanda!!”. It’s kind of bittersweet. It’s cool to look at the opportunities that I have been given, and the way God uses me now, but it’s weird to think of my family as 2 people, a dog and a cat, instead of 5 people and all of the noise and commotion that I used to call home. I don’t really expect anyone to read this. I don’t really know that that is important. I hate having problems that are nothing like the television shows we watched as children. While I have given these problems up to Someone who can fix them, I still don’t know how things will turn out.
If you see me on campus, stop me. I know I don’t always see the things that are around me, but I desperately miss the people that I used to spend so much time with. I haven’t dissapeared from the planet, I’m not even that far away.
I doubt anyone made it through that, but if you did, leave me a message and I’ll share my wealth with you when I become fabulously rich and famous. Ha.
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i just want to let you know from the bottom of my heart that i expected you to share your wealth with me all along regardless of whether i read your xanga posts or not. and I love you. and I miss you. and with everyone being so busy and only being in town for so many hours a day while other people are still in class and then living far away when i am chained here by work and can’t ever go visit people makes me miss you more. i hope it is not always this way but even if it is i will still love you and i am always here to talk. i am just a phonecall away, friend.
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just know i only take cash or pirate gold…i miss ya’ll peoples too, as it were….now that its gettin cold i feel that the only the we HAVE to do is sit around and play mario DDR all day….
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Manda!! You are not alone. Come visit me in my new apartment! I understand how it can be lonely going through the day surrounded by people & not actually talking to anyone much. I hear ya. Agh. What is one to do? Maybe you’ll find the answer. You can do it!
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i read your stuff. and it sounds odd (because i’m not married) but i know how you feel.
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I don’t want your money…I just want your love! I love you girly and I’m sorry you’re feeling blue. I understand how you feel, everybody is just so busy these days and hopefully it will slow down. I wish I could see you more. We should all plan a weekend for everyone to get together or something. Or I’ll just drive up there someday and might just bring some people from ETBU with me, lol. I love you and if you ever need to talk or anything just give me a call or email or im or anything!
Love,
FiFi
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oh manda, i’m so sorry that you’re lonely. i hope that change comes for you soon
and i also hope to see you soon. love you
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ah…i love you manda! i forgot about calling you the night i was in canton (just minutes away from you)…i’ll do better next time…tina
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i miss seeing you.
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what is it about getting married in college that it suddenly puts you on a virtual island? when we find out we should write a book 🙂 Hang in there!
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Amanda,
I miss you too and hang in there, the semester is almost over!!!!! Call me sometime!!! I’d love to hear from you and chat-we could get together for lunch one day or watch a movie sometime!!! 🙂 God loves you!!!! It will all be okay!!!! HE’S (God’s) GOT IT ALL IN CONTROL AND HE LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!
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ohhh, another thing-can you tell me how to get to your house? If I’m in your neck of the woods I’ll drop by-you and your husband are welcome to come out to the lake with me sometime (Canton is half-way between my house and Commerce)
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Amanda,
I understand how you’re feeling. I’ll be praying for you.. Love ya bunches!!Megan (Reed) Petty
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